Hey Everyone. My life has been taking some interesting turns. I've recently been fired and been arrested and drank a pot of coffee (which is why I'm still up to type this). It's been a really crappy time actually. But wait, there's more. It hasn't been all bad to be sure, but it seems to be the bad that sticks out. So here's where I'm at.
I'm struggling with my pornography addiction. With a broken computer and an overactive imagination, accountability is a little lacking in my life. This is a call to anyone who actually reads this. CALL ME OUT! Ask me, "How are you doing?" Ask about my addiction, ask about my struggles. I don't care if it's out in public amongst the 6 billion people on the planet. I hate that I struggle with it and if that's the only place you'll see me, then ask me there. Okay, enough ranting.
I want to tell you how much two people frustrate me in my life (I love saying things this way because I know some people are going, "Oh yeah, it's Alyssa because they aren't together" or "It's so and so for whatever reason"). JACEE PHELPS and KENDRA JAARSMA! You two frustrate me to no end and it drives me nuts sometimes. You ask the tough questions and always seem to point out that there's more to my life than what I'm focusing on! Blah, I should expect the inevitable question, "So aside from that, what's going on in your life?" but it always catches me off gaurd! Thank you for making me quit dwelling. I love all of my friends, not just these two, but I wanted to give them a special shout because they always step in and say, "What about that?" when everyone is arguing with me about "this". Thank you!
I lost my job last weekend. Between a broken glass in the ice well and an elusive bottle of wine, Todd (my manager) decided I was done at the restaurant. Not what I'd like, but I have to live with it. We parted on good terms at least (always a bonus). So what am I up to now? Relaxing and getting things done in Kindersley. That's right, "Son take a good look around, this is your hometown." My hometown. Great song by the way, if you like that kind of music (Bruce Springsteen).
I'm hoping to either work at camp or work on a road crew for the summer. Ministry or money for school...it's a tough choice, but I don't plan on making it on my own. I'm leaving it in God's hands. It's not my life anymore, I was bought at a price. I'm not taking as good care of it as I could, but I'm working on it. Bill Latrice (wonderful man) told me, "Develop God's character in your life, location and vocation will follow." I believe that is true and it's where I'm hoping to get. Right now I'm looking at automotive mechanics, guiding or possibily a degree from Briercrest/Eston College, and maybe Lifeforce. I don't know. Guys and girls, keep me in your prayers because I'm trying to make choices that are too big for me.
As for my arrest? I was handcuffed and put in the back of a police car for "Impaired Driving" except that I hadn't been drinking. The unfortunate thing is that the officer who pulled me over and stuck to his "You must be drunk" philosophy didn't stick around to see my name cleared. Sorry, but I'm not stupid and I'm not about to drive drunk. It just doesn't fly with me. Oh well, that's the story of how I was arrested.
So I'm going to talk really briefly about the "this" in my life, after all that's where the title came from. Alyssa is headed back to Taiwan, I've lost all of my friends within the family, and dwelling on the good times just gets me caught off gaurd by others. I'm finishing things up, tying up the loose ends if you will, and getting ready to close this book of my life. Usually I refer to life as a book and the chapter ending, but I think this is a book ending. Like so many good books, I'm sure I'll look back and want to reopen it, but I know it will never happen. I doubt if there is an epilogue to this book, but it's up to God to write. For me, it's really hard to have an ending or a goodbye (ask just about anyone, I loathe change that involves an ending), but I think it's time. I'm sure that when I close the book, I'll probably never hear from or see the Chambers family again. Friends, prayers for strength would be greatly appreciated. Now I'm praying that God opens a new book for my life.
Thanks for taking the time to read this. I love you all. Feel free to comment, message me on Facebook or email me k1quizzer@hotmail.com. God bless you all and keep feeding the fire.
