I said this blog might get used for confessions (I was sneaky, I knew it would). I also said this blog might get used for accountability (I was snea...well, you get the idea). This idea really scares me because I'm being open and vulnerable. It was difficult with someone I loved and trusted with my life, but to be open and vulnerable with the entire internet population (like billions of people, give or take three farmers from Saskatchewan who may or may not have access on their farm) is way more difficult. So I'm going to be open with the world: I have a problem. My current accountability is not enough judging from my track record, so I'm opening myself up to you. DISCLAIMER: Not appropriate for children!
Here's the deal: my addiction is (wait for it...) pornography. Typical "guy" problem. Or is it? Yes it's fairly well known that 99.9% of the male population has used pornography or masterbated. It's a problem I talked to a pastor about once, yep he struggled too. Almost every guy you meet has had this problem (although, many may not see it as a problem). Hold the phone sports fans! Girls have this problem too. WHAT!?! A lot of guys don't know this, but it's true. Usually not to the same extent and not even close to the same percentage of girls struggle with it, but some do.
So I'm admitting that I struggle with pornography. Here's how you are going to keep me accountable. First of all, for those who feel like writing me and inquiring into how my struggles are going my email is k1quizzer@hotmail.com and you are going to do just that if you want (totally optional as I cannot and will not try to force anything that actually takes your time). The other is for people not taking the optional route (and I'm forcing this upon anyone who reads my blog). Simply, I'm going to post on my blog when I stumble and fall. It will help me, and thank you for those who actually take the time to know that I'm struggling. Until next time, guard your eyes.
P.S. Prayer is ALWAYS appreciated.
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